I think the grieving/bawling/x-treme emotions have passed so I'll say
this much. I was asked to leave the teaching program due to some
failings in my special education courses and my "lack" of
"proffesionalism/interpersonal skills". Before you exclaim, WHAT? WHY?
I'll explain this much. It seems that "several instructors" (they
cannot say who but that's besides the point) felt I talked out of turn
in class, talked off topic in class, used my laptop inappropriately
(this is a falacy, I was using it to take notes and gather information
for assignments) and I didnt display that I understood the curriculum
in my special ed. classes. I admit, I'm sometimes bad at conveying my
understanding of facts in a classroom setting (I get nervous presenting
in front of the class). This adds up to them feeling that they
couldn't place me in a classroom and that I needed to withdraw from the
program. Now, I haven't been exiled. I can certainly try again next
year, but the fact remains I am DEVASTATED beyond belief and I'm a
little bitter.
BTW, I was given notice of the proffesionalism thing, but that was
three weeks ago, and considering it sounded like it was an on-going
problem in their eyes, you think they coulda told me sooner that they
felt there were some problems. As for the special education classes, I
didn't quite realize I was failing them. I thought I was getting Cs in
them but that doesn't seem to be the case.
The current plan is to try and get a job as a paraeducactor/teacher's
assistant and see if I really can handle being in a classroom. I felt
I could when I volunteered but maybe with some more experiance I'll be
more ready (and maybe I'll just stick to general education instead of
special education)
On a final note, I was told to finish out the quarter (this week) but it feels so akward to do the classwork and even think about going to class when it seems so futile. It's like being fired but being told you have to stay for another week to [Office Space Reference]finish out your TPS reports [/Office Space Reference]
EPSC: She's crazy, lazy and oh-so-lovable!
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