Love can really suck. It's not love itself that does, but the things that are part of it. Emotions... memories... sircumstances involved in a situation.
It's better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all. Is that really true? Maybe it depends in what way you've lost it. Maybe it's even better to never have truely loved, unless it would never be actually lost.
Last night I had a weird dream, it's rare that I remember dreaming. The dream itself was insignificant. But at the end something hurtful happened. last night, before I slepth, I was feeling quite fine. Even thinking I was over her. Again, maybe for good. As this happened before I kepth in mind there was still a posibility I was wrong again. As I was about to wake up, my sub-concious really hurt me. Either in the end of the dream or just after the dream, I was thinking or imagining something. It was about us. It hurt me, and I felth like rather dying at the spot. Clearly I'm not over her. Not then, not now, and really... ...not ever.
I haven't been actually thinking about her anymore, not in intimate or love related ways. The only thing I do is worry about her from time to time. And I admit, I at least think about her once or twice a day. Just some general things. Sometimes I still think how it would be if we ended up together. I know I'd still do anything for her. Even sacrifice my life whitout a doubt.
You probably know who I am talking about, but I just can't say her name now. It would really hurt me if I'd ever lost her.
Os iusti meditabitur sapientiam, et lingua eius loquetur iudicium.
Beatus vir qui suffert temtationem.
Quanium c-um probatus feurit accipient coronam vitae.
Kyrie, ignis divine, eleison.
Oh quam sancta, quam serena, quam benigna, quam amoena.
Oh castitatis lilium.