I am pretty embarassed to say this... but every once in a while I go to bed late, because I need to blow my nose and wipe my tears constantly...

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"Pedicabo ego vos et irrumabo"
I will f*** you in the ass and mouth
Catullus, XVI

Things do sound more profound in Latin...

A lot of people do that, even though they don't admit it. Though I honestly think crying doesn't help one bit. It doesn't do anything. Even after your done shedding tears, you still feel bad.

Tell me about it... sometimes when I start thinking depressing thoughts during class I need to hold myself so that I don't cry in public...

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"Pedicabo ego vos et irrumabo"
I will f*** you in the ass and mouth
Catullus, XVI

Things do sound more profound in Latin...

I normally don't have that problem. When near other people, I tend to be dead silent and stoic. My thoughts focus on where I'd rather be, what I'd rather be doing, and other things. But once I'm by myself, those emotions I've been hiding all day sometimes come out. Only sometimes, though. I'm good at holding back my emotions.

 

Maybe that's why my friends keep saying I'm emotionless. The again, when I'm not emotionless I'm apparently crazy. At least that's what they say.

It's kinda weird with me... when around other people I'm usually quite jolly and if you saw me, then, you'd never think I'm depressed... but every once in a while, usually when I'm quiet, those thoughts keep coming back...

...and I don't even get me started about how I feel when near Carol...

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"Pedicabo ego vos et irrumabo"
I will f*** you in the ass and mouth
Catullus, XVI

Things do sound more profound in Latin...

Agnald, I think maybe the problem is that you haven't found your 'thing'. Everybody needs a thing, something that keeps them from going insane with boredom. Cos when you get that bored, you have time to think about yourself, and that (as you probably already know) is not a good thing. The 'thing' is good, when you're stuck in class with some asshole at the front talking about **** you don't care about, you can just think about your thing. Maybe you have found a thing but its not your thing. You probably just need some time to work all this stuff out (I think I found my thing when I was about 16).

(Okay, maybe I shouldn't have called it the 'thing', theres now way too much innuendo in this post for my liking...)

Ehmm I only found my thing when I was 17 and you are right...It has helped me alot. That thing theory is pretty realistic and good! Bravo..and such.

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*fujin that would be to you, sir*
^_^ Rock on

Humm... the thing... you know what you mean, Spree... I do have been looking for a thing... but it's so damn hard to find it... I suck at most things... sports, games, arts and computers (mostly because they hate me)... maybe I should try looking for something really unusual to be my thing... I dunno...

And BTW, what's your thing, Spree ? your bass ?

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"Pedicabo ego vos et irrumabo"
I will f*** you in the ass and mouth
Catullus, XVI

Things do sound more profound in Latin...

Music in general is my thing. But yeah, the bass has helped a lot recently.

Once I really started getting into music, it helped a great deal.  I recently have been getting "down" again, but usually my music helps a lot.  That's why I sing.  I may not be any good, but it relieves a lot of pent up emotions for me. 

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Each day that comes is one day closer to Pedro's demise.

And no oompa-loompas.

Well, Lolli, that explains when a lot when you heard me sing a while ago. Good to see music has that effect on you.

Well, I know I posted before about the topic.

But to come back at that...I dunno.

Maybe I'm too lazy to get over whit it.

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Os iusti meditabitur sapientiam, et lingua eius loquetur iudicium.
Beatus vir qui suffert temtationem.
Quanium c-um probatus feurit accipient coronam vitae.

Kyrie, ignis divine, eleison.

Oh quam sancta, quam serena, quam benigna, quam amoena.
Oh castitatis lilium.